Hi all, I was hoping to find a thread like this somewhere here, I'm really glad I have.
I suffered mainly restrictive eating and chew-and-spit for nearly 3 years, aged 19-22, then relapsed two years ago when I slipped all to easily into obsessive exercising and restricting again. I had an amazing counselor (paid for privately) through the latter who wasn't patronising, understood and listened, and it was one of the best decisions I've ever made. I've since recovered but piled on the weight (about 3stone) which I'm now trying to sort out with Slimming World, but had the same concerns as all of you. I find it hard to allow myself Syns, which I know could be detramental to my loss, and struggle to eat my Healthy Extras some days. I know this is due to my past EDs and obsessive dieting, and I really need to get my head straight and relax a little, but its very difficult. I'm also joining another gym again with my new boyfriend, but I'm scared the obsessive impulse to excersise will come back. I think the key is support and total honesty, and not to keep things to myself. My EDs were very private and my 'little secrets', so I think as long as I'm open about my dieting and exercising then people will be able to spot if I'm going too far.
Argh! This is so weird writing about this, but such a weight off my chest, I'm so pleased I found this topic <3