Hi everyone... thanks Sarette, Sleepy, Laura, Trip, Jess, Angela, Serena and everyone else who has been there for me while I was away on the other side of world without my CD safety blanket! You've been fab, and checking in occasionally has helped me to stay focused. Lost yesterday to jet lag & still struggling, have been up since 3.30 and browsing minis... oops! But so lovely to catch up.
My last week away was hard food-wise as there were a lot of work dinners and lunches and my energy levels were running low, can't recall now the choices for every day, but chose as best I could. I know I was well over my cals for some of those days and it took me three hours after getting back home before I dared to get on scales. And when I did...
GULP. I didn't put on. I didn't even stay the same. I LOST!!! Just a weeny bit, but I am amazed and awed and just about ready to start building a shrine to CD, blinking astonishing!!!! I know I have used up a lot of energy while away, with only two days off in three weeks, very long days and lots of mental/emotional & physical energy being spent on the actual work... but still. I cannot wipe the jet-lagged grin off my face. And I know without CD & the weight loss, I'd never have coped with such a gruelling trip, so full-on... I swear, I would sing the praises of CD to anyone who'd listen. And of minis, of course.
One blip (timtams moment) in three weeks, but lots of scary food... pasta... cheese... risotto... and I am still here to tell the tale. I can see how much I have changed, that it doesn't feel nice any more to eat once I am full, that it's OK to leave food on my plate, that I don't need a pudding even if the pud option sounds great... but that I can have one, if I want to... just that I don't, usually. And that even a dodgy choice (timtams) doesn't have to be the end of the world. I just feel... well, more normal around food. I never thought I'd be able to say that, as I haven't been normal around food for as long as I can remember!
I don't know now whether to step back onto 1200 or 1500 or try to just 'be normal' but so, so happy & relieved. And so grateful. Big hugs again...
xxx