"I should know what I want by now
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One day (unless I go earlier) I'll be a little old lady sitting in a chair in a care home with a crocheted blanket over my knee.. I'll have my cup of tea brought to me, and I'll look forward to a nice dinner and a bit of telly.. maybe have a good view of the garden and some flowers which I'll spend days watching bud, grow, develop, bloom, then be replaced by the next generation of flowers....
..at that time, I'll look back on my life.. I'd like my memories to be of feeling relaxed and comfortable with where I was up to in my life... to not mind not knowing what the future held, to feel free from pressures and stresses from having believed I 'should have already' done x y and z...
I feel pleased that I discovered the joy of country walks in my fifties, and, in my 60s I learned that I like painting pictures..
I see the young people so concerned about what they should and shouldn't be doing, and wish I could tell them, that they'll be me one day, and then they'll have all the time in the world
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Right! Enough of my little fantasy! I have work to do, bills to pay, deadlines to meet! Hahaha!!
I can't be sitting round here enjoying my life, I have things to do!!!
Vxxx