Hi all xx all my love to you we all seem to have our ups and downs in sync these days. And ups and downs they are, my goodness it's hard isn't it? Is it me or am I noticing a pattern, we seem to get so close and then stall? I too am not having a good weekend, well yesterday, today I am hoping I can turn it around. That is the one thing on this diet, it is unforgiving in relation to gaining weight back, it seems to come back like lightening with the least little slip.
I need to get my head around what is stopping me from breaking my next barrier - what am I worried about? Why can I not just plough through? Each time I am within touching distance I seem to do something that will make me gain a little back so it takes longer to reach. It is almost seeming impossible. What will it take to just knuckle down and get through that?
Answers on a postcard lol... Seriously though - I know we are strong independent women who don't let people walk over us, we have proved that with what we share on here and yet when it comes to being strongest with the most important thing - ourselves - we can't ! I say we turn some of that strength inward and beat it once and for all I can't carry n doing this - emotionally it's draining and physically it must take its toll. I don't think that once I get to my target weight I will never go up and down but I want to bloody see that magic number on the scale, be able to fit into nice clothes with squeezing them on and to have a comfortable relationship with food. It is my enemy right now not my friend. - I don't particularly want to be friends with it just now but one day.
Sweet Jesus - all a bit profound for a Sunday morning I know - I have been up since 5.30am thinking about this and some other stuff that is going on and I just think enough is enough.