Day 171... I'm changing!!!
ok guys its Day 171 and i decided to change my way of losing weight for a little while.... as i'm sure anyone who reads my diary will know i have been up and down both on this diet and personally for the past month or so and i've decided its gonna stop. my personal life is back ton normal and i'm fine and happy. but i just couldn't seem to get my head around SS'ing 100%, i was grand during the day but i would be planning what i'd have that night and because i wouldn't have been 'allowed' to have food during the day my mind just went into overdrive which meant i was always making the really wrong choice of having a take away at night.
so i went to my relaxation class last night and the girl who runs it is fab. she does little exercises and there is always a 'topic' and last nights was 'to release something'. when it came to mine it was anger at myself for not being able to get back on the diet and not being able to stick with it. between us we came to the conclusion that at the moment my body and mind just isn't able for SS'ing 100% and mine was 'to release all rules about food from my life'. i have had so many rules in relation to dieting and food all my adult life and probably most of my childhood. so i now choose to release all rules that i hold about food from my life!
after the chat she does a quiet relaxation for about 15 minutes or that and when i was so relaxed it just seemed right to eat healthy with some cd products as well. when i was all chilled out i didn't even think of bad foods it was all good healthy stuff. to be honest i have craved healthy foods for the past while but because i was always starting cd and knew i wouldn't be having any food at all i always opted for the unhealthy option, i know thats mad but its true!!!
so from today, for a couple of weeks or for as long as i need to, i'm eating healthy. i'm going to do a diary of my food intake (mini thanks for that idea)!!
i feel a lot more relaxed about the whole thing this morning. another reason is i really want to go to the gym and exercise and i feel that if i do exercise i will get faint cos of the low calories and i want to change my habits and try to incorporate exercise with healthy eating. i'm not saying i won't go back to ss'ing 100% but for the moment i'm not!
i have a lot to learn about food and how to approach it but when i started ss'ing it was because i was 16 stone, miserable, no nice clothes, no self esteem and the rest... but now i have nice clothes, i feel great about myself (most of the time), i'm no longer miserable and the same urgency isn't there. so i'm gonna take a little detour up the scenic route for the moment and see how i get on. if i find myself vereing off up bad food street i'll be re-assessing my options!!!
thanks for reading guys and i hope you all have a great day!!
love
Gen xx
ok guys its Day 171 and i decided to change my way of losing weight for a little while.... as i'm sure anyone who reads my diary will know i have been up and down both on this diet and personally for the past month or so and i've decided its gonna stop. my personal life is back ton normal and i'm fine and happy. but i just couldn't seem to get my head around SS'ing 100%, i was grand during the day but i would be planning what i'd have that night and because i wouldn't have been 'allowed' to have food during the day my mind just went into overdrive which meant i was always making the really wrong choice of having a take away at night.
so i went to my relaxation class last night and the girl who runs it is fab. she does little exercises and there is always a 'topic' and last nights was 'to release something'. when it came to mine it was anger at myself for not being able to get back on the diet and not being able to stick with it. between us we came to the conclusion that at the moment my body and mind just isn't able for SS'ing 100% and mine was 'to release all rules about food from my life'. i have had so many rules in relation to dieting and food all my adult life and probably most of my childhood. so i now choose to release all rules that i hold about food from my life!
after the chat she does a quiet relaxation for about 15 minutes or that and when i was so relaxed it just seemed right to eat healthy with some cd products as well. when i was all chilled out i didn't even think of bad foods it was all good healthy stuff. to be honest i have craved healthy foods for the past while but because i was always starting cd and knew i wouldn't be having any food at all i always opted for the unhealthy option, i know thats mad but its true!!!
so from today, for a couple of weeks or for as long as i need to, i'm eating healthy. i'm going to do a diary of my food intake (mini thanks for that idea)!!
i feel a lot more relaxed about the whole thing this morning. another reason is i really want to go to the gym and exercise and i feel that if i do exercise i will get faint cos of the low calories and i want to change my habits and try to incorporate exercise with healthy eating. i'm not saying i won't go back to ss'ing 100% but for the moment i'm not!
i have a lot to learn about food and how to approach it but when i started ss'ing it was because i was 16 stone, miserable, no nice clothes, no self esteem and the rest... but now i have nice clothes, i feel great about myself (most of the time), i'm no longer miserable and the same urgency isn't there. so i'm gonna take a little detour up the scenic route for the moment and see how i get on. if i find myself vereing off up bad food street i'll be re-assessing my options!!!
thanks for reading guys and i hope you all have a great day!!
love
Gen xx
