Trying to make a difference

[Mifford]

So surprise surprise - I fell off the wagon and hit the ground heavy and hard!! I am SO annoyed with myself - after all the work the last 3 weeks I go and blow it today. I didn't even really need to as it wasn't hunger that did it it was pure pure craving and I totally folded.

Its not as bad as it sounds - I had 75g of ham and then finished off the 75g of chicken roll as well. I think in total it puts me about 250 calories over the top of where I should be which still isn't bad and I haven't had the full half pint of milk today so that will counteract it. But at the same time I could kick myself for giving in!!!

And I know that I gave into the cravings purely because I didn't lose so much weight this week then did a sneaky weigh in this morning and nothing had shifted and I kind of thought "oh sod it". Totally sabotaged myself.

Looking on the bright side the easy to eat stuff is now no longer in my fridge so come tomorrow I'm getting properly back on track. And if having food means I can't resist then I will be going back on SS+ with milk and just having the shakes.

I just hope I haven't blown my weight loss for this week - I am going to be so annoyed with myself if I don't get that back by Thursday.

At least I didn't eat the muffins I guess

 

[SacredSilence]

:hug99: We all fall at times, What is important is that you get back on the wagon hun x

Start over tomorrow and move on and no more buying yummy things to tempt you! lol

Xx

 

[Mifford]

that's what is so funny - it was ham which isn't what I would put as the most yummiest, dangerous, tempting thing to buy hahahahaha Afterwards I was so annoyed with myself you'd have thought I'd eaten a whole 1kg bar of chocolate rather than 75g of ham hahahahaha

Determined to get back on track today. I am having some sausages for dinner with salad leaves and as I could only buy a full size pack yesterday and forgot to split them before I froze them so will be having cold sausages for dinner tomorrow. I'm not going to sweat that too much either - I have calculated the calories in it and can get it down to the 810 (ish).

I was going to work out on the cross trainer this morning and then do the front garden in order to work off what I did yesterday but unfortunately my back has gone on me this morning - typical Well nothing for it but to get back on track and get back in the zone and get on with it then

I still can't believe that 3 weeks without any problems whatsoever and sticking to it and one day and I fold and blow it - and all because I let me brain get the better of me. Still not haribos though at least lol

Oh well - today is another day and we will be startin it afresh. Hope everything is going better for you two.

 

[leeds123]

week 3/4 is a funny one, and i think most people have a wobble at this point. dont worry, you ate the best type of thing you could and am sure it wont affect weigh in. just up the water today and tomorrow and i bet you have a BIG loss this week.

 

[Mifford]

I certainly hope so lol It was week 10 that got me first time round where my head had had enough. I did know it would be harder second time round and had decided that I was going to stick to it as long as I could but when it got beyond that I would go into maintenance at that point. Hopefully I can put that off for another fw weeks now having had this blip.

I'm in two minds about upping the water - last time I did CD I had problems afterwards with my kidney which was suspected to be a kidney stone and my doctor thinks it was CD that caused it - although since then my thyroid has been diagnosed and it could just be that my kidneys work slightly slower than they should as I've been prone to infections over the last year.

I've been wary about it this time round though and have increased my fluid to 3 litres to cover it. The last few days I've been getting back pain on my right hand side again and I'm wondering if my kidneys are struggling a little bit with the amount of fluid I'm drinking - its in line with how I usually feel when I have a UTI. It could also be that I've twinged something slightly gardening etc but it has made me a little bit dubious about increasing my fluid level so I'll probably stick to the 3 litres for now to be safe and see if the back pain goes or not.

Feeling much better today - am about to cook my 2 sausages and then eat half of one for lunch, another half when I crave later then have one with a little bit of salad for dinner. I suddenly realised that I don't actually need to have my one meal in one sitting and can spread it over the day and maybe that will work better for me - I'll let you know how I get on

 

[AMANDADOYLE74]

well done hun, get back on track! sorrt top be beief but sleeping all day as working! dont worry bout your lapse , it was nothing! ham! come on! good luck for the rest of the day.xx

 

[AMANDADOYLE74]

Hi, sorry my last post was kinda illegable! was very tired ! i survived my 3 nights! and have been very good, its the thought of a bikini thats doing it. Hope you had a better night? is the eye any better? any meetings with the landlord???

 

[Mifford]

yeah - the sausages are probably best not discussed. I have no idea what happened to me this weekend but I became an absolute eating machine!!!!! I literally could not stop.

Today I have already done 25 minutes at a slow and steady pace on the cross trainer and burnt off 275 calories (or so it says) and I am banning all food until Thursday. 4 shakes and that is it - I'm even going to alternate my normal tea with peppermint today to reduce the amount of milk intake. Tomorrow I will hit the wii fit for some boxing, Wednesday cross trainer and hopefully if I really blitz it before Thursday I can recover everything. I'm 1/2lb up this morning but amazed that's all it is. I came so close to throwing the towel in and it was touch and go until this morning when I tried my jeans on again and decided that no I am NOT ready to stop!

Eye is last day of anti-biotics today and it finally went down when I woke up this morning so much better thank you.

Landlord - I pretty much give up. My goddaughter is home yesterday and not knowing he's there I text her to ask if she's free for a cuppa - first reply was "ish - here with the boys watching a film at the moment". So I asked if that was a yes ish or a no ish and said I need to get out the house to stop me eating as i'd gone insane and she replied answering everything except whether she was free or not. By about the 5th attempt I eventually get well you can come over if you want but I'm in the middle of dinner and a movie. Night before she does a meal for another friend of hers and her friend's brother where I believe the landlord was probably also present. So for some reason she seems determined not to help and without her help there is no excuse for me to meet up with him at all as we have no other friends in common really. I've got fed up with it to be honest - no idea what her problem is at the moment. Unless of course she's reading on here and got pissed off with me in which case its her problem not mine lol My other friend will mention it to him in a couple of weeks if he's at a party she is going to but if he's interested great and if not I'm not doing all the running. He's cute and I'm interested but I don't need to be throwing myself at his feet. Interested yes but desperate I'm not

Well done on the 3 nights at work - that must have taken some willpower. When do you weigh in to see the benefits?

 

[leeds123]

mifford, lots of cd'ers have mentioned that the upping of water is just as hard on the kidneys as not drinking enough. its really interesting to hear your views on this?

on sat i have a day off and i drank v little water, then sunday morning woke up with a slight pain and lower back ache. i am sure this drinking of water in differing quatiites (loads one day, none the next, and all my own fault) is dangerous!

anyway, just wanted to say, keep at it and good luck for this week!

 

[Mifford]

I have no idea whether my theory is correct or not but its my instinct. I think in my case drinking tea may be making it worse and I do have problems with recurring UTIs over this last year anyway - freakily I get no symptoms from them whatsoever until they hit my kidneys and then I just get bad back pain on my right hand side. Never seems to hit on my left. My lower back and right hand side are aching a lot at the moment but having used the eliptical this morning I'm wondering if it is more muscular this time as I'm not weeing more than I would expect with the amount I'm drinking. I am the same though that if I drink a lot one day and not a lot the next I feel very achy.

I'm cautious about using too much water though which is why I've stuck to 3 litres of fluid (50% water and the rest in either tea or chicken bovril) - common sense tells me that if this diet is tough on your liver and kidneys anyway then making them work even harder with too much water may not be the answer. Plus whenever I've heard of problems with LL or CD it seems to be with people that overloaded on water in too short a time. Obviously those cases are with people who have gone waaaay over the top but it just makes me a little bit wary.

As I said I have no basis for it and I'm sure there are lots of people who drink more than me and have no problems whatsoever - its just an instinct that for me its not the best idea but I could be totally wrong.

 

[AMANDADOYLE74]

evening, I am also getting some kidney pain, i usually dont drink anything unless on this diet! i am only managing 2.5 litres a day. i do loose more though when i drink! glad eye better! and your god daughter needs a kick up the backside! how rude of her to behave like that! As for land lord , dont give up!!! just do it through your other friend. hope today went well, i have only managed 2 shakes so far! and really weirdly hate the bars all of a sudden? they taste really salty for some reason? yuk! of to bed in a mo as no sleep today!x

 

[Mifford]

I've been pretty good today - the only thing I found was I went round my friend for lunch and took a tetra brick and unusually it didn't even touch the sides. I had to make another shake when I got back!

About to have shake number 4 for today and then I'm not allowing myself anything else all evening. Feel so much better for it but am weeing like crazy today!!!!! lol

I've been odd on stuff this time - the things I loved last time I really haven't been able to stomach which is weird. I put on another post here that the chocolate orange is tasting horrible this time whereas I loved them last time and the chocolate tetra doesn't seem anywhere near as thick or satisfying as I remember last time. So I guess you are getting the same thing with the bars.

Have a good sleep and here's to another angelic day tomorrow

 

[AMANDADOYLE74]

morning! what a nice sleep! loving the fact molly is now sleeping through! woken up starvin though, but only had 2 shakes yesterday! just wasnt hungry. Its a lovely day today so will probably go to the park!

I dont like the tetra packs, they taste funny! kinda like the box! think my taste buds have gone s bit weird, everything taste a bit salty? even the shakes! Iused to love choc orange, now its just plain yuk! gives me a sore throat? I do love toffee and walnut, although salty?

heres to another day! ordered some bikinis yesterday so just keep picturing myself in them as i am now! thats probably what put me of my food yesterday haha! :8855:

have a nice day.x

 

[Mifford]

are your packs still in date? I definitely haven't noticed them tasting salty

I woke up starving this morning too and have made the decision that I will indeed stick to either 810 or SS+ - my brain was thinking about food so much yesterday that although I can do the SS I think its a recipe for disaster. Plus I did a mini weigh in this morning and my weight is down - plus the constipation has improved *blush* so I've come to the conclusion that my body actually needs food and the slightly higher calories. With that in mind I just had a pork stir fry for lunch and it was lush!!!

I'm totally giving up on the landlord - I just went on Facebook and thought I'd remove my friend request as its been ignored for 3 weeks so that it doesn't look like I am stalking him if my friend does mention I think he's cute and to be less embarrassing at that point. It no longer shows as pending and he hasn't accepted so I think he's rejected me!!!! hahahahaha I've come to the conclusion that while my goddaughter is hanging around with the guy she's a lot more selfish and rude, things my friend has told me kind of tie in with that and then considering he doesn't actually know I like him and he knows I have a number of mutual friends on there yet he still rejects a friend request that easily - I've pretty much lost interest very quickly. He's cute - he's got a nice smile - I like his sense of humour ... George Clooney he isn't so I can live without it hahahaha

I did a quick profile on e-harmony for fun last night too - its profile assessment of me based on my answers to their questions was really not that far of the mark and when I read it I realised that I actually really like me and I'm a pretty good catch. Not in a big headed way just made me realise that I shouldn't settle for second best or be running around after anyone. I haven't put my photo up yet but I've had at least 5 requests from guys already to remind me to add it and find out more about me that hasn't done my ego any harm! lol Ooooo lets just hope when I put my photo up it doesn't put them all off hahahahahahhaha

Oh and stop having fewer of your shakes than you are meant to! Firstly your body won't lose weight if you don't get a certain level of calories as it will be too few plus you are missing out on nutrients. Even if you are struggling force yourself to have them - or maybe get some bars and nibble on them during the day so you don't have to have them in one go.

 

[AMANDADOYLE74]

:wave_cryitch that land lord defo! he sounds like a prat!!!! you can do better and are obviously too good for him! he is prob intimidated by you! as for your god daughter, she prob fancies him thats why she is not helping you!

you got those scales out again didnt you!!! does that mean i can cheat? I am gonna go back to ss+ cant live without that 120g of chicken!!!! got some atkins bars too, they are yummy!!! low carb and lw cal so cant be bad? lower than cambridge one.

I think your best having the food, you have not got much to loose now anyway, and if your gonna stick to it then its all good! no point suffering i say!!! its so much easer to socialise when you can add some food!!


gonna have another shake now as starvin, looking forward to my chiken salad!!!x

 

[Mifford]

hey I was allowed to get the scales out - you had brie while you were in France hahahahaha

to give the landlord credit I've decided I like him without him knowing then I've decided to get to know him without him knowing and then I've decided that he's an idiot ... without him knowing hahahahahaha My other friend has said she will assess it if he's at the same party as her in a few weeks and might just mention it in passing to him and see what reaction she gets - but if her instinct is to leave it then she will as I've got to the stage where I'm kind of take it or leave it now. I wonder if he may have just caught me while I was having a hormone boost before hahahahaha

My goddaughter - I don't think she fancies him but I think there is a slight bit of liking being the centre of attention or its that she isn't really being herself and is putting on an act to "fit in" and that's not so easy to do when I'm there so she's maybe keeping her different sets of friends in different boxes. Then again she did text me back a reply to something else I asked at the weekend that she hadn't replied to and apologised for forgetting about it so she isn't always that bad. I honestly think she's just busy trying to find who she is at the moment and needs to just take a step back and be confident enough to be herself instead of who she thinks she wants to be.

SS+ is fine for you to do - from what I've seen the weight losses are pretty much the same anyway so why force yourself to do avoid any food if you don't need to.

I'm just watching Supersize vs Superskinny for the first time - its helping me get a whole new perspective on my weight! I definitely don't want to be heading back towards the supersize but the superskinny is just as bad and I've come to the conclusion that I don't need to be getting obsessed with losing that much weight! (as if I was going to anyway lol) Watching these girls obsessed with what calories are on something as simple as a single slice of brown bread is horrifying.

I've also found I am so much happier today and yesterday having done some exercise and I want to get back to doing that again so maybe I need to add a bit more food in to allow for that anyway.

Hope you enjoy your chicken tomorrow - even after just a couple of days that is going to taste sooooooo good lol

 

[Mifford]

good morning. I started off today with 25 minutes and 275 calories on the x-trainer .... and now I want to die lol

Actually I do feel better when I exercise so I'm loving having it back and its something I need to introduce more if I'm going to maintain weight loss in the future and its good to know that if I do fall off the wagon a little bit then I have the calories banked as a back up plan.

So my next weigh in is tomorrow and I know from yesterday that I'm about 1.5lbs off my 14lb weight loss so today I WILL be absolutely angelic. I am going to be so annoyed with myself if I get close and don't reach it because of my blip at the weekend.

Suddenly realised as well that I have my parents down for bank holiday weekend which is only a week and a half away. I'm not sure what I'm going to do yet - I'm not sure its worth the hassle of the nagging about the diet so I might keep my mum happier by eating relatively normally just for a couple of days. I can keep it low carb without too much of a problem - chicken salad for lunch without much salad and I can do turkey stir fry in the evening and just not have the pasta so although it'll be off CD it won't be too horrendously bad. Its going to be hard to get back on track afterwards though but it'll be a good test as to how committed to it I am.

Hope everyone else has a good day xxx

 

[AMANDADOYLE74]

morning, well i cant move my limbs today! over did the excersise yesterday! no pain no gain though i suppose! any way forced myself to do some more this morning too!

chicken salad sooo good last night! I am hopiing for 7 lbs tomorrow! which will be 2 stone in total!!! fingers crossed. You have already cheated and got your scales out so you know it will be a good day hahaha!

Yeah re parents staying so hard to do it 100% with them around, france was really hard! just do low carb as you said, will be fine! do a couple of ss days after?

 

[Mifford]

aha - the scales are out but I haven't stepped on them since Monday morning (I think). Definitely not been on them today anyway. I am determined to break the habit even if it kills me

Doing exercise again this morning is the best thing you could have done if you hurt strange as it sounds. Make sure you stretch well though and it'll help for tomorrow. If you the muscles have done more than they are used to so that they hurt the next day then they slowly tighten up more and more over the next few days - strangely by exercising more you stretch them back out and it helps with the recovery. When I did my 5K last year (ran/walked in a 50/50 ratio so not as impressive as it sounds lol) my legs were killing the next day so I headed straight down the gym to run it off and it really does work.

 

[Mifford]

so I've been trying to be really really good today and needed distracting from food this evening so I went to my friends house .... and there she is watching Jamie Oliver on the telly making all manner of really mouthwatering things so that helped :8855:

Weigh in tomorrow - I'm really really really hoping to make my 14lbs and I'm going to be so annoyed with myself if I don't. But then at the same time it'll be my own fault for going so nuts at the weekend.